Hahaha, sound sleep deprived much? You bet your bippy I do. BUT alas in the end its worth it. You get the grade you hope you worked for, and you get to have a blast in the library with some of you great friends.
Gosh I cannot believe I have just finished my last Fall semester as a college student. Its frightening yet exciting at the same time. Knowing that I can look back at all my accomplishments over the years, but at the same time not being sure as to what I really want to do once I graduate.
Sure I’m really good at my studies, but part of me doesn’t foresee my future practicing what I have studied. Sure I can be the typical college student who goes and get a job and is ho-hum about it, heck I know I will be one of those people just solely due to the circumstances of our economy. So my winter break is going to be fulfilled with applying to police departments and government jobs.
Does my experiences here at college really prepare me for the real world? Part of me thinks it does. Over the years, I’ve managed to reform a sorority that is now 22 girls deep, in the span of 2.5 years, be a member of a honors fraternity, be an executive member of an academic fraternity, as well as being the President of a very involved college club. And yet part of my thinks it never will.
Sure the extracurricular activities that consume my life over the 8 months that I am here at school facilitate much of the skills needed and learned for the “real” world, but one can never be too ready. There are things, experiences, people, situations that school can never prepare you for. It is essentially the unknown. And it is terrifying, but how you handle it can really tell a lot about someones character. Now we all know we’ve been in those situations of he said, she said, or things could have been handled in a much more democratic and fair way, yet hind sight is 20-20, so how can you judge if you came out on top or the bottom. Well…it really doesn’t matter who wins or loses does it? Just think about it.
One of my good friends stated this about me the other day in that fun filled and procrastination game of numbers over facebook: “First let me start off by saying that I admire your seemingly inante leadership abilites. You always know what to say and the fact that you don’t mind saying it over a fun time is even more admirable lol – Seriously, though, I’ve never seen someone take on SOOOOO much and still carry out each task to the best of their ability. Also, You smart …like fo’real smart”
You get thrown under the bus, you get thrown into a situation, you throw yourself into a situation. ALL of which I have unseemingly have experienced in that last 3 years. Exhausting sure, interesting…extremely! People and the world excite me…..and annoy me. But hey, I figure that is perfectly normal. Being a cynic at the age of 21, well that’s not so normal. I’m working remedying this issue, hahaha.
I guess I should get to a point sometime soon in this blog.
That is, I may not know where I want to end up after graduation, or even in 5 years. To be completely honest, I don’t know where I’m going or where I’m headed. And to that end, I have no idea what it will take to get there. It scares me sometimes but at least I know who I am, who I want to be, and the difference between the important and the expendable. And i know, that when I find it, whatever it is I’m not currently looking for, I’m gonna make it matter and i’m gonna make a difference. I want to be the person my parents raised me to be, live my life by the golden rule, experience new things, new people, and grow as a person from it.